i’m looking forward to get home but only because it means i can restrict and starve again

should i fast for the rest of the day and drink a lot of rum for dinner

already three votes against it

i need to lose 5 kg immediately

on the train back home i kind of wish i was drunk right now

soon my best friend and i will move into an apartment together and everything will be okay i know that getting to spend time with him every day will make life feel much more bearable

i’m home now so i’m gonna clean my room and then sort through my clothes and figure out what i need to sell or get rid of to keep myself distracted for the rest of the afternoon

i feel so miserable whenever i actually do eat enough

i have a feeling i’ve gained at least 2 kg ……. i don’t wanna weigh myself

gen question do you guys think it’ll be possible for me to lose 6-7 kg before the end of august

okay well … i’ve gained 1.4 kg

i’m so fucked they’ve definitely all caught onto the fact that i’m relapsing

i feel like i’ll be in trouble

in my room currently pacing back and forth

two drinks in so far and my dad’s wife’s parents are coming over for dinner in like 15 minutes i think

i’m too warm and tired

i’m starting to realise why i shouldn’t mix stimulants and alcohol i just want to go inside and lie down