Living with grief is such a head fu*k. Today is my wedding anniversary (22 years) but half of the marriage isn’t here to acknowledge it 💔. Tomorrow I’m spending time with a very good man. We are going to celebrate being together 🥰. How do the two things share the same space?

I am sixteen months into this 💔I have learned to accept the change in my life path and I have chosen to live the life I’m left with, the best that I can. I miss him so much though. I hope that I’m enough parent for the young men that are our boys 👨‍👩‍👦‍👦 now 👩‍👦‍👦

I am so proud of our boys. Eldest, 19, he’s living his best life, working away for the summer (in between Uni) but home for the weekend to surprise me! He is the most lovely, kind, respectful, good and honest human. We did a good job I think. #grief #onlyparent

I’m am not proud of myself right now. I’ve let the reactions of people who I care about, affect how I think about my life. But the fact is, is MY LIFE! And I’m not doing anything wrong (I don’t think). I’m just doing my best. He’s Gone, not coming back 💔❤️‍🩹

I run. But since my husband died, I struggle to start a run from our house. It’s something we did together. By posting here, I’m making myself accountable that tomorrow, I will run from our doorstep. #run #runners #accountability #grief #marathon

Update: I did it. I (eventually) set off from my front door and ran the route that we always did together. First time this year. I might do it again tomorrow. I will keep moving forward. #positivity #grief #running

Realisation: every achievement is bittersweet. I am super proud of our youngest, he passed his driving test today. But he can’t tell his dad, nor can I. But the fact that he did it is positive, so we’ll work with that #grief #widow

Hi! I’ve been quiet…for good reason I think? My life goes on. Despite suffering the most devastating loss, I am managing to move forwards (not ‘on’-I hate that 😠) The teenagers are great, I’m studying, I’m running, I’m living. Hopefully with #positivity #grief #Grief #running

Hey! As a widow, what would you do with a birthday card addressed to ‘Miss’ forename and (married) surname from an in-law. I’m not even #AskingForAFriend

Crikey…I intended to update with #positivityingrief but made the mistake of scrolling ..wtf is wrong with people? “If tha can’t say owt nice, then seh nowt” 🤷‍♀️

Update! Life for me and our boys is good, we are good We’re 2 years into this grief malarkey where apparently it gets better? I went through his work apparel today to decide what to bin and what to keep and I’m destroyed. A life and a career done. 😔