why do i keep buying more vapes i hate this

how dare you make me smoke a cigarette? *opens pack* how dare you force a cigarette between my lips and force me to smoke a cigarette? *lights one*

okay instagram i totally needed 1am ed fuel restriction reels exclusively no entertainment just gym bros on cuts got it got it

Recently OMADing has me up again. I’m legit awake with sundowners like I’m starved again. Luckily breakfast is 6:30-9:30 so I’ll just lie awake a while longer.

Your soft flesh it burns and chills against me like candle wax. I hope your touch is not hot enough to leave burns in your greedy adventure. There’s nothing more permanent than setting me on fire, you can’t put me out. You can’t put me out. You can’t put me out!

Maybe I did lose weight? I say that because my armpit concave is more insane and my hip bones are kinda outter but idk. I don’t trust it I won’t look. I won’t look for a month idc idc im fat.

I’m so cold omggggg

In New York I seen a lot of thinspo irl but also a lot of bigger women who were much prettier within minutes of each other? So I was in heaven, I love beautiful women.

I can’t even say “ I need to get skinner “ bc I’m not even skinny yet

i don’t have an eating disorder i’m perfectly fine

Damn, I feel like vomiting everywhere. I’ve been pissing nonstop at this point so my electrolytes are probably low. uwu At least once we get back to my state we’re going to Sprouts to get groceries so I can restock my goops. I’m going to try coconut yogurt for the first time.

Got called pretty and getting compliments on my fits in New York so many times now my confidence is like- PEAK. Just for me to have to go back to work in a few days and probably have it shattered back to hell where it belongs.

Well I didn’t gain anything on that trip. In fact I’ve been eating/drinking all day and I’m pre binge weight. I have to consider all the constant pissing as well and re-weigh tomorrow morning sometime.

So depressing when I watch people on here that I DM lose weight. I know that’s the point but it’s scary. I get really scared for them.