A sadness has descended again! I guess this should be expected but for 27 years I felt a feeling of absolute content! #grief has shown that this was a borrowed emotion. Becoming a #widow has been the most testing time and here I am again, struggling 💔

It’s been 14 months, I cry for me 💔 I cry for our grown-up kids I cry for his friends I cry for my colleagues (as I’m not what I was) I cry for the life we’ve been robbed of I cry for me 💔 #widow still coming to terms with #grief 14 months in 💔

Feel like the people in my life no longer want to hear about my loss. They no longer want to hear how my life has changed. Do I fit into their lives? Or remove them from mine? #grief changes us - we are no longer who we were. Becoming a #widow is inconvenient for everyone else 💔

How does this #widow life feel normal? We were supposed to spend the rest of our lives together! We wanted to spend the rest of our lives together, it was an option we chose. Yet here I am, me without you! #grief having other ideas Miss you, miss us 💔

And there’s yet another sadness 💔 His aftershave still waits on the shelf in the bathroom! I’ve sorted clothes, but the essence of him remains. The scent that was him… don’t know what 2 do with it? No one wants aftershave that once belonged 💔 Just needed 2 share #widow #grief

Went 4 an interview 2day following a phone interview last week. I’m hopeful it went well, but my radar 4 these things is off I really want this job so any good vibes you can send 2 a #widow finding her own path whilst managing her #grief would be gratefully received. Thank you 🙏🏽

Absolutely gutted… It didn’t happen, I didn’t get that job 💔 So, so grateful for all of your messages supporting a #widow as her #grief journey evolves… Anyway, onwards and upwards, have applied for 2 more today, surely someone will want me 😥

We’re nearly ‘there’ is all I’ve heard over the last few days! but where is ‘there’? #grief means I always have a feeling of ‘nearly’ but am never quite anywhere! No longer new to this #widow gig 💔 but still feeling the effects as if it happened yesterday. Unable 2 fake it 💔💔

Wishing everyone who has supported me on my #widow journey a quiet, restful Christmas #grief changes how u view events, especially in the early days May your home be filled with love and your heart be filled with contentment, wherever you have found it ♥️ Sending peace for 2024

We’re about to step into yet another year! A year further away! It will no longer fit to say “he died last year” This new #widow normal is extremely painful to navigate. How has #grief accompanied us for so long and yet feels like a blink of an eye. Continuing 💔 & devastation

I miss him. I miss his face. I miss his arms. I miss his warmth. I miss his smell. I miss us. I miss the life we were supposed to live together. I miss the plans we shared. I miss him 💔 #grief echoes in my ears. A new #widow trying to take each day (each moment) as it comes 💔

Feel like this fits for me… My #grief storm will become easier to navigate, but will be with me forever. My rainbow awaits. Becoming a #widow is a devastating new journey that no one can truly plan for. I’m waiting for the rainbow, I know it will come…

Support in #grief is helping me to feel like I can turn a corner! I have found a #widow friend who gets what this horrendous journey feels like. Thank goodness for her, she helps to make this pain more bearable! Hope you all get the support you need as you navigate this new path

So I’ve not posted for a little while… turns out the unkindness of one has stilted my confidence a little. I’m still trying to make sense of this new world, the world where we used to exist as 2 and now I find myself as 1… not such a new #widow still finding her way through 💔

This place-an amazing platform 2 put all of my 1st #widow thoughts. 4 that I thank those who listened, liked & replied.Time (as it does) has ticked on, the situation obviously remains, #widowhood has not lessened, the shock has I guess… love 2 those stepping out for the 1st time

Been a little while since my last post, but I do have news to share… I’ve just recently returned from my 1st EVER solo trip. #widow taking small steps moving forward… A long weekend away, albeit locally- not much further than maybe 1/2 an hour away from home, but I did it! ❤️

#grief 4 the 3rd Christmas as a #widow Life has changed so much, I occasionally need 2 remind myself that life looked so different before… so normal, what I recall life should be. & yet here I am, living a new life, wishing love 2 those of you who are navigating a new normal 💔

Illness whilst managing #grief always seems so much worse somehow. A #widow without their better half to complain to… the missing validation of how it feels, almost makes it worse! Perhaps it’s psychological? Turns it into self pity? The many missing ‘normals’ of #grief 😢

So… 4 those of u following my #widow journey, u’ll know I’ve had 1 or 2 highs (& many lows…) I did manage a solo trip last yr! This yr, I’m feeling like I could push a little further! Any recommendations for a #solo female traveller? Where will I be safe and looked after? 🤔

I guess I’ve found a new ♥️ 4 this platform, the haters can just 😤 Supporting adult kids with the #grief - a sudden loss of their dad is tough. Their lives are moulding,changing, they’re doing all of this without him 💔 all I can do is sit and quietly support without sobbing 😭