how tadctwt feels lately

I wish I was someone's first option. I wish I was someone's OG. I wish I had that friendship. But I guess no matter how funny I try to be or how overly positive and nice I try to be even though i don't like forcing it, it won't be enough. This is all in a PLATONICAL sense btw.

Sure I may be a friend to someone, but there's always gonna be favorites. I grew up in a household with massive favoritism, and I wasnt the favorite because I was "too negative" or "mentally ill." Because of that, favoritism in ANY COMMUNITY has been a trigger for me.

So yeah (doodles I did a while ago but im posting it now)

Is this about that climbing game everyone seems to like? Digitaltober Day 27 - Climb #Digitaltober #TADC

Everyone's doing positivity threads and stuff and im sorry but I dont feel like being positive after forcing myself to be that way around a fandom for like....weeks.

Walt Disney Animation Studios has released two new "OSWALD THE LUCKY RABBIT" animations in honor International Animation Day. The animations are done by Tyler Pacana ("Once Upon A Studio", Warner Bros Animation "Looney Tunes Cartoons") #OswaldTheLuckyRabbit

Okay fine just let me post one more time before taking a break I hate you all(/j) guess the reference, and yes Jax abstracted (Shapely has a Brooklyn accent dont judge her now) #TADC #Ocxcanon

I really dont tjink j can do this everything is too hard

I want to sleep forever I just want to lie down I dont want to die but I'm tired of struggling

Jax was hot when he said "you are my playthings." There I said it now I disappear again bye

Oh fuck

I wish Jax could aay happy birthday to emeee...

I feel bad that the only thing im gonna take out of this DnD stream is designing a DnD Shapely when there are better and more important characters to draw..

But anyways I finally got my depression meds, do I join tadc twitter/tadc fandom again or....what idk i just feel unwelcome

Kingar...

Someone redraw this as Ribbit, Ragatha, Jax, and Pomni STAT/j

Daily Depressive Episode begins NOW

Anyways idk if anyone cares but yeah im trying to be positive