they should invent a mother that doesn't hate you

okay I'm locking In today NO FUCKINY AROUND OKAY

goodmorning edtwt I hope I spontaneously combust

trying to turn anorexia nervosa into anorexia but it just turns into bed instead 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I AM THE WORST ANOREXIC I HOPE I DIE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

liquid calories are fufking terrifying oh my god

uufggffgg I love starving because then I bruise easier.... it's not like, a self harm thing I just love seeing bruises on myself since I rarely ever get bruises idk if this makes sense

started my meds again and they've completely taken away my appetite godbless

401 cals 😭😭 depressing ass meal

145 cal early dinner yippee

453 cal omad todayyy(#^.^#)

chat I went out with my mom and binged.

100 cals worth 100 cals worth
of food of a drink

anyways starting off malnourished may with a fast 🫶🫶 17 hrs in I'm gonna aim for 48 hrs

I'm not even allowed to be sad or upset without repercussions. every emotion I feel is bad and dirty in one way or another

why can't I be happy