Being a parent made it worse. So easy to almost blame my kids for me not pulling my finger out and cracking on with work. When I did carve out time, I'd find some technical thing to work on. Spend days on it. Spoiler: it wasn't important. I was avoiding.

The question that changed everything: "What would happen if you actually concentrated?" Not "here's what you should do" or "have you tried Pomodoro?" Just that one question. It dropped me down the rabbit hole.

Three-hour walk. Talking to AI about my reasons for making noise. Where does it come from? When did I first find comfort in noise? Who am I making it for? What if I could help hundreds of thousands instead of thousands? By the end: properly excited again.

So excited I now forget to get washed in the morning because I'm so hyperfocused. (Don't worry, I still wash. Eventually.) That's my neurospicy experience: all or nothing.

I'm psychologically embracing what I've done rather than always putting it down because it's "not real music." 60M+ streams later, maybe it's time to accept: it's real enough.

The noise isn't just about blocking out screaming kids or builders next door (though fuck me, it helps). It's about building this little den to hide in. A cocoon. Once you're in there, you don't want to leave.

Working at soft play: other parents chatting happily. Me: noise-cancelling headphones, brown noise, flask of tea, most uncomfortable plastic chair in existence. I could create my little world and crack on. Sensory cocoons work anywhere.

Fuller, textured sounds work best for me. Brown noise for deep focus. Pink noise for general concentration. Something with depth. Weight. Presence. Not silence. Not calm. Texture.

When silence feels too loud, you need presence. When calm feels threatening, you need texture. 60M+ streams from people who understand.

Not every sound works for every brain. That's why I've made 22 albums. Sleep. Focus. Textured. Black noise. Pink noise. Brown noise. Find what works for your particular nervous system. Explore the collection: noisefoundation.com/sounds

I make textured ambient soundscapes, not meditation music. There's a difference. Meditation asks you to focus on the sound. Ambient noise asks you to ignore it—whilst it protects you from everything else.

The paradox of being a sound creator with misophonia: I love making sound. I hate hearing sound. Resolution: I build walls, not windows.

60M+ streams. 22 albums. 7 years. All from someone who wanted to flip dinner tables because of chewing sounds. Life's weird like that.

For Apple Music users searching "pink noise for sleep": 285 Hz Pink Noise - 24M+ plays. Equal energy per octave. Balanced texture. Works when white noise is too harsh, brown noise too heavy. geo.music.apple.com/gb/song/pink-n…

I spent fucking hours uploading my noise to Bandcamp: 285 Hz Pink Noise - same track as 26M+ streams on Apple Music. Own it. noisefoundation.bandcamp.com/album/analogue…

For those asking about the 24M play track: It's on the "Analogue Pink & White Noise" album. Apple Music, Spotify, Bandcamp, YouTube Music. Search: Noise Foundation + 285 Hz Pink Noise

I make textured ambient soundscapes for restless minds. 60M+ streams and counting since 2018. If your brain needs more than silence: noisefoundation.com

Apple Music users: all 22 albums browseable by Sleep, Focus, or Textured categories. Start with Analogue Pink & White Noise (the one with 24M plays on the 285 Hz track). geo.music.apple.com/gb/artist/nois…

I Can Hear Electricity (And My Toothbrush Charger at 3AM): For sensory-sensitive minds that notice EVERYTHING. What's actually happening (it's not just you). noisefoundation.com/i-can-hear-ele…

DRONE NOT DRONES: the 11th annual 28-hour drone; a benefit for Doctors W... youtube.com/live/0abzMPsun… via YouTube