im not in recovery, i was in forced one but i couldn’t handle it

therapy psychiatrist appointment & work combo isn’t for me

im so irritated and pissed off bc it turned out that people at work have my tiktok?? i feel so stupid and i'm afraid that they will look at me differently especially since i post various things related to mental illnesses and the fact that in the last videos with lei we kissed

40kg

dziekuje<33 jak chcesz to napisz kim jestesb

literally i can’t bear it fr xd

thanks..

my worst nightmare has come true and another person at work knows about my tiktok, so probably EVERYONE knows. i'm so fed up with them and idk how to react to their behavior. my fav person at work said that "someone sent her a video that some happiness has come to my life"

if i cut myself, will they call an ambulance while stitching and take me to the hospital? or not? really i don't know what to do with myself!!

lowkey wanna do a big red mess bath

patzrcie na te zony btw tak mnie to ujely ze sa pod soba jak czegos szukalam ze musialam sie z wami podzielic jakie slodkie

i’m going to the night shift and i don't feel like it ehh

i had a consultation at a psych therapeutic ward and it turns out i'm too sick to be admitted there. they invited me for another consultation in six fucking months.

i feel so bad idk what to do and i have very strong urges but i'm going to therapy right away

no to co napisalxs to jedne z glownych objawow

i just can’t. i would do anything for people who i love but recovery feels so not real

chat if i drink it will i be able to recover?? /j

apparently it's so shitty that the therapist suggested to meet also tomorrow, so i'm going to work, then to therapy, and then i’m going to my beloved gf

uhh so?

gdybym byla na oddziale to najpierw byloby forced recovery ktora dziala u mnie w sposob taki ze nie dziala xd ale bedac tam bylabym juz “zmuszona” xeby sie tego podjac i tyle