if you're grappling with a problem, and you seem to get stuck when you're trying to deal with it on your own, and you only make progress when you have the right people around, instead of beating yourself up about this,, have you considered,,, you may be a mammal

cincinnatti is pretty and goette is yummy

we tried to make god into certainty, and it burned us so badly that we killed him and made certainty into our god.

so god damn tired of passing the torch on to my future self. he never fucking does anything. and i never fucking do anything with it either. every day i have to pass the same god damn torch on in the same god damn place ive always been.

just started frieren with my siblings and so far every episode has made me cry

Think “They did me a favor” and like, mean it. Not in the sense that they’re an asshole so they did you a favor by walking away but in the sense that y’all weren’t right for each other and they gifted you w a vacuum to find your person. In the sense that if they had stuck around

first cup of anise hyssop oxidized "black tea" i'm again surprised by how mild it is. very light anise/licorice notes. probably would use this in a blend, not by itself.

how would you make money if you were me

In the idea of "separating your work and personal life" lies the admission that while at work, you are not a person.

dresses

there is one developmental assignment that comes before all others: you need to navigate to a social context where you are reminded every day that you are good, you are of benefit to others. I cannot stress this highly enough.

todays haul. before long i will be drowning in cucumbers from just 2 plants

scrolling twitter brings me nothing anymore. it feels aimless. i do not interact with people like i used to. hmm.

i think my timeline moving from mostly mutuals who like me & interact to mostly people who don't followback or interact makes twitter feel very lonely

i've been reflecting on 25 years of tears kept to myself and adding to their number. i am a mammal. i want to be held. i *must* be held. i want hugs, especially when i am sad, and i don't know how to let someone hug me when i'm crying. i am achingly lonely.

i feel like everything i do is in the wrong direction that must mean i need to do all the things i avoid or am afraid of, and quit doing all the things i would usually do

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