i can't recover. this is all there is for me. this is all i have

i refuse to acknowledge the updated bmi chart as a short gal, for my own mental health

literally k1ll1ng myself for a body that i’ll never be satisfied with.

we always talk about the physical side affects when restricting but no one really talks about the mental aspect as much. Everyday is a constant battle against your own body. I swear it makes me go a little insane fighting hunger.

i fit into my pre forced recov jeans again🥹

had a dream i binged.. i thought it was real and woke panicked :(

i need to be sickly thin by september

“You’re not ⭐️ving urself again are you?”

Having hunger pains vs knowing you're losing weight

one thing about me is i will always feel fat whatever my weight is

why have i maintained for 3 days :( im so fat, whats wrong with me. I haven’t ate anything outside my omad.

what time do you guys omad ? ( if you do ) for me it’s 5:30pm to 6:00pm

I raised my intake just a little just for today so hopefully that helps :/

a man being skinnier than me is so triggering

not romanticizing/ encouraging it at all but having and ed is a super power. like wdym i can eat less then 200c and function enough to get 15-20k steps, clean, and watch my siblings ??? my self hatred is enough fuel.

my mom said it looked like i lost weight 😼 we’re back bitches

Ate my omad and continue the torture of weighing myself after. Crying like the 5.5lbs i went up isn’t the food and 96oz of water I consumed

constipation worst ed symptom

went to the dentist and my hygienist was fine😛

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