America failed women tonight. Trump bullied, assaulted, and stripped reproductive rights away from women all across the country and instead of standing against it, many voted for it. We have failed our daughters, mothers, and sisters.

Oh dear, America. What have you done?

It feels surreal today. I thought I’d be seeing one of their funerals when I was an old lady, and I’d tell my grandchildren about them, sad but alright because they’d lived a full life. This, today, isn’t the order of things. It’s just wrong and it still feels surreal he’s gone.

So excited to see Zayn’s show on Tuesday!

Also seen all the merch and I can’t decide what to get… need the city shirt of course, and the programme booklet but not sure what else. Love the litho but £50 is just too much for me right now. Maybe the keyring for my collection….

Does anyone know what time Zayn takes to the stage in London on Tuesday please?

Literally queued up for merch on my crutches. Almost at the front and this awful woman all but barged me out of the way. Got served first and nabbed the last Zayn programme. I’m so sad. Now I’ll never be able to get one 💔💔 why are people so awful?! #zayn #StairwayToTheSkyTour

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Really enjoyed seeing Zayn last night. You could tell he was nervous but my god can the guy sing. Hearing him live is something else. Really proud of him conquering his nerves to pull it off. Amazing show. Grateful for it all.

this is the first year since 2018 that I have not posted a Christmas fic. It’s been a whole year since I posted anything at all, and longer since I’ve written. It feels strange to leave that part of my life behind me. Very strange.

I thought the teenager might make one last Christmas a nice one. No chance. I know he hates me but to have me in tears on Christmas Eve is a new level of cruel. I’m at the point where I hate myself and my life.

I want to go to bed tonight and never wake up I’m done. I can’t do this anymore

I hate myself

I hate my life I hate it all Family is nothing but a fucking heartache Nothing but people who let you down And disappoint you

It’s all fucking shit and I want it to be stop FUCKING STOP

Just make it stop please I can’t Do this

I’m crying out for help for Something and no one can hear me

You can start a family who will always show you love You don't have to be sorry for doing it on your own This is lies. Utter lies. All I’m made to be is sorry for doing it on my own. I started a family and they don’t love me now. I’m totally and utterly alone