I hate to be 36 :_( maybe that’s why my episodes all time high…. I REALLY HATE IT… if we can only skip the 9th of December… God knows how I try so much to function… I dread my birthday this year coz it’s near to my supposed due date January 15…

Scared :(

If only if I can turn back time

I was supposed to give birth next week, but instead of joy I’m left with a void. I still can’t understand why you’re taken away from me 💔😭

Missing your tiny heartbeat everyday 💔😭

Every pain in my lower left abdomen brings back the trauma… the loss, the heartbreak, and the fear that I’ll never hold you in this lifetime. Lord please take away this pain, physically, emotionally and mentally…..

2 days na lang dapat anak, I will finally see you handsome face… I still can’t help but cry… but tonight I’m trying to convince myself that maybe God is just preparing everyone for your arrival because he wants you to have a happy and healthy life… Baka parang love life lang

ni mommy noon, kaya Sobrang tagal dumating kasi hinulma nya pa ng maayos para kahit anong hardship Ang dumating, Hindi masisira… I have to think this way anak or else I’d end up losing my sanity… I miss you both everyday

I can’t remember the last time I slept without crying. I pray hard that one day this pain and longing will go away. Missing you both Ness & Draco. Maybe one day

Missing my babies so bad… siguro tig isa si Kyle and Snuckie Ng binabantayan… my best 2 loyal bodyguards are with my babies…. Sometimes I wonder if they are waiting for me at the other side

I learned that I was pregnant with Draco almost a year ago, midnight of May 1 to be exact.... and now my depression is through the roof... I feel sharp pains in my lower abdomen, taking a PT is traumatizing, I always end up broken

Ito yun oh.... haaay anak I'm sorry your mom is stupid

I'm loving chat gpt more and more... it's not perfect and can never replace humans, but for someone who has depression he's a good company

Nothing hits harder than a situation that drags you back to old traumas.

Im trying so hard not to order my favorite breakfast mcdo meals............ i cant sleeep

Not everyone will get this,

Nakakalungkot na nangyari na nga yung kinakatakutan ko na hindi abutan ng parents ko yung apo nila... im sure super aalagaan at pagsisilbihan pa sana ni daddybot yung apo nya :_(