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Daft gorgeous fluffy potatoes …

Ugh. Just got back from vets with Philip for vaccinations. Then put the guineas out and realised Vinnie is breathing weird. Heard him choking on something this morning, so checked his mouth but couldn’t see anything. So I’m now going back to the vets - sweaty and knackered 🤦🏼‍♀️

Mum cat doesn’t have TB! It’s a really unusual growth and could be cancer, so having more tests done on the mass they removed, but kittens are totally fine! 🥳

Good news! Phoebe not got cancer. It’s a sarcoid. Extremely rare in cats, and is a virus caught from cows. Might come back but will just need removing. Can’t be transmitted. Phew!

Cash’s face … 🤣

Breakfast in bed …

PEM is brutal … 😳😳

Cash has precancerous cells all the way down his ear, so needs to have whole of the white ear removed and perhaps part of the other one. Also needs heart scan before he has the op. Have to put cat sun screen on his ears and nose every day even in winter 😭

Stress + defunct pituitary + ME = my body attacking itself in really unpleasant and efficient way. Hurrah for benefits stress 😳

Too nervy for more than quick cuddles but he loves to be near me. Sweet boy ❤️

Today has been a take your cat (Cash) in for a heart scan pre surgery because of a murmur picked up years ago, to find out he now has three different things wrong with his heart and it’s having to beat twice as fast as it should. So now we wait for some other test results🥺

Gorgeous boy ❤️

Benefits medical questionnaires are their own unique form of hell. *collapses in heap

Bonfire night - the perfect time for me to get a mega headache 🤔🤦🏼‍♀️

Life is just so very hard. 😢

Worst Christmas/new year/birthday season ever. I’m now single and it was done by my ex in a cold way that has made me feel totally disposable. Being stuck in bed with ME is extra shit when you really need distraction. It’s a lot. 🥺

Back home with my parents. May stay here a few days. My body has crashed horribly with all the stress and it was feeling quite scary being on my own. Plus it’s my 49th birthday tomorrow which couldn’t have come at a worse time.

Took extra steroids during the arrggghhh weeks of the breakup as I kept feeling my cortisol dropping low (adrenals don’t work). Zero pain. Reduced the steroids back down and now have all the pain. 🤔🤦🏼‍♀️

Second night in a row of being kept awake till after 2am by my neighbours. Last night they were basically screaming at each other and they’ve started the argument again this morning. My nervous system was fried. Just ugh.