//i’m 100% the backup bitch of this fandom lmao

//people pissing me off & it’s my deceased mom’s bday so yeehaw

//i’m anxious and antsy & it might be due to my mom’s bday but i have no clue so i’m sorry y’all

//i’m honestly tempted to flip one of my trans accounts for lance

//or just give up on the trans aus as a whole since everyone ignores me talking about trans issues anyway 🤡🤡🤡

//i just lost three followers i.... good fucking riddance then

//actually, kurt is more successful than pietro so idk

//me, getting muse for lance by listening to dubstep and brown eyed girl:

//please read this. either way i should probably just take a break rather than repeatedly promise shit and not come through. i have muse for lance but i’m kinda just sick of being what seems to ME second choice.... especially considering it’s 100% the marvel fandom that makes—

//me asking for plots n sls n shit never ends with anything more than maybe a like or two, no matter what. y’all say you want me to fucking post something, and yet nobody responds when i do. y’all look like booboo the fucking fool and i’m fucking sick of it.

should’ve said something before the last straw broke the camels back then

me: depression: me: depression: y- me: let me guess im a piece of shit depression: a- me: and i don't deserve love? depression: g- me: oh and i burden everyone around me without even trying, depression: geez alright, steal my thunder why dont you me: :/ sorry

//one more thing to maybe clarify: a big part of what makes me feel like this is that i have a tiny handful of people that will actually write with me out of 80-800+ followers. it feels like shit. so, if/when i do come back i will be exponentially more selective.

i do appreciate it, but when someone has stopped being pissed & everything has actually hit, late has become too late.

//i logged back in to say that though everything i’ve said is true to me, i do feel better after that monumental breakdown, though this place is.... not good. if/when i truly come back it WILL be under new accounts.

//also daymode is forever ugly as hell