I am losing clumps of hair at the moment, which is a slight concern as I really don't think I can pull off the bald, monastic look

My hair now is apparently made of smoke...

Fuck everything about this; bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-…

Spent all day in agony. Put on my ileostomy support. Instantly feel better. Yes folks, as well as cancer, and ascites, I also have a hernia... Fun times

So I got my first royalty cheque today from book one. Apparently I only sold fifty copies despite it selling out multiple times on Amazon. I'll be kicking off about that next week as frankly I've made more from 2000 word articles....

I want a *full* breakdown of units sold to which market in which format, as from what I can tell there are no foreign sales or ebooks.

As you can perhaps tell, I'm fucking raging

To be continued post chemo

See... This is why I'm iffy... Apparently said book is in 48 libraries, which means it's only sold 2 copies to private buyers. I'm calling horseshit on this...

Just ate. Just threw up (even with anti sickness pills). Shit

I'm getting very scared. I'm losing hair. I'm losing weight. I can't eat. The hernia seems to be growing. I think I'll be bringing all this up tomorrow when I'm getting chemo

Off for chemo. I can barely walk. This could be an experience

Okay *urgent* blood tests are ensuing. I've gone yellow like a Simpson

In other news my platelet count is now 425... Le shrug

Fuck knows what's up with me now then...

I get the distinct impression I won't be leaving the hospital today

Well it took ten hours but I have a bed. It's from 1977 and I am two foot too big for it but hey ho

In other news before I started puking and going yellow, I was 13.5 stone. I'm currently 10.9 stone. So that's fun

They did and x-ray and an ultrasound both of which showed nothing. I assume the next plan is CT scan. Who knows at this point though

Also if I don't reply to you at the moment, it doesn't mean I don't care, it means I'm fucked up and more than a bit poorly