lost a lb for every week ive started this job which isnt a lot but makes me happy

i miss this 😔

getting lost in a stream of consciousness (dissociating) while on a hot girl walk (being disordered)

lowk binged and yes ik this isnt a lot of cals ive had 3k cal binges before its just more ab the behavior that bothers me... like i wasnt very hungry and just kept going back to the kitchen im gonna be at 1.4k cals after dinner tho so we're fine ig

i am legit like not good at a single thing. failing every single one of my classes this semester. im just so exhausted and i feel so trapped in the life im living. if it werent for my bf i probably would have ended it by now. im so so tired and i just need to be held for forever.

i feel so inadequate

living in the us is so dystopian why is it a TREAT for me to be outside in raw nature on a monday...

whoever goes to olive garden every wedsnesday with a large tropical smoothie cafe cup in hand and sits alone to eat a bunch of food ik what you are

90 bucks 😔

I don't think I'm capable of getting better

I just want to be comforted and protected

eye twitch

i wasnt even skinny but i miss my old body

relapsed 👎 i think about going on the roof at work all the time and just want to jump idek why like o should be happy idk why i cant be

it is funnt that today marks 2 years of me being clean and i just threw it all away and it was literally scratches like okay so im a piece of shit AND a pussy, neat.

i could actually die like i used to look sm better

Getting ready for an awful night😔

Back at my hw and my wedding is coming up I could kms my arms are huge

Pre vs post recovery 😟 60 lb difference