ok atxually sleeping trust me

i don't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. i want to use them， to enjoy them， and to dominate them.

I'm so tired.

he was a good man. he deserved to live much longer than he did, he was taken from his life too soon, i hope he knows i miss him.

i look so dramatic sat at his grave, i look like a ghost myself. this is the only time people will see me in such a long black dress.

i should probably go visit my mum's grave as well, i haven't left her flowers in a while.

tired.

uffhfhhgh

i hope they know i didn't go off the rails. i hope they don't speak to me with new friends as that person they use to know who lost it because i wasn't crazy

i feel, a bit better. it's easier than it use to be.

"i feel better" oh girl u won't tommrow!! haha!!!!!! //

rough day. going to sleep, (hopefully)

dragging myself to work #fml

i think i have a fucking cold too fuck