Why did I wake up 1) in excruciating pain again... and 2) hella craving a Nanaimo bar? Well I suppose 1 is easier to explain than the other, and that's that I have cancer, which is hella painful. But why does my body crave such a delightful treat that is impossible to get here.

Perfect

That feeling when your legs just give out because you've fallen asleep, when gravity takes hold and there are no thoughts until your cancer ridden bottom hits the ground in agony and you're rolling backwards until a second later you see stars then pain as your head hits the wall

Dying is so draining... at least there are donuts

Congrats!!!! Gimme all that happy queer love ABSENCE MEW SINGLE #MewPressconAbsence #MewSupasit #Tul_Pakorn

Please YouTube gods... cancer got me stuck in bed with weeks left to live. Don't take one of the channels I watch regularly away. I need all the Thai tea to enjoy what time i got left

In so much pain right now I'm just standing in the middle of my room, not sure what else to do. Fuck. Also just realized my walker looks like 2 raptors

Was supposed to get my last haircut today, but I received a message saying my appointment has been canceled cause they're closing the shop for good. What luck that is.... Guess I'll just die with longer hair...ugh.

I have 2 alarms set, 1 for my every 6 hour doses, and 1 for my every 8 hour doses. By the time 4 hours hits, my pain is up to a 6 or worse. The PHARMACY refuse to increase my meds, so I've just learned to live with this, however much longer I have. I have stage 4b colon cancer.

I feel like it would be a bit petty to say: "Welp, at least I'm dying" as my last post... yet petty feels like the appropriate emotion these days

A year of colon cancer... #cancerIsStupid

I often forget what I used to look like, before the cancer & the weight loss, before sickness ate away 1/3 of me, & covid took cons from me, back when I was showing the closest to joy Id ever shown in my entire life. Now I just see a skeleton covered in flesh, sorrow, and loss

Didn't want to do this but this but I have no choice, On September 1 2024, Alexander Dapo reached out to me to be in his music video, "a Christian song*, we've never had any interaction before this, we came to an agreement and I kept everything professional

I haven't opened Spotify in forever due to being bedridden most of the year. Guess my wrapped shows that lol

I'm so fucking tired of this. Everything hurts. I can barely eat. I'm in bed all day. I just wish it would all end. I'm ready for it to be over. #cancerIsStupid

We have completed the move from Anaheim to North Hollywood and the probable location of my last moments. Dorian said this is his new bed.

I miss the days of being a capable #earper when I could celebrate the holidays with a new craft. All I can do now is post old photos of better times with the #WynonnaEarp Fandom #cancerIsStupid #cancerSucks

This is the easiest question to answer. I saw this cover art in the comic store as I walked by and I was floored. I'd never seen a piece of art so beautiful.