pretty quiet weekend these past couple of days, i mostly stayed home and decompressed this time. meeting new people and getting out of my comfort zone is good i think, just also really miss the reflection time i used to have more of.

Imperial Impresence

45 weeks HRT now. my sister got me some nice winter clothes yesterday! i was really happy about the advice she gave too, it's sometimes hard to tell what looks flattering on my own. even this far in i'm often clueless without guidance.

cried so hard after laser today that the techs seemed genuinely worried. it's a good thing the sessions are like a month apart now.

laser acne aside we killin' it today :>

46 weeks HRT now. somehow taking photos of my figure still feels really embarrassing, even when it's in form fitting clothes. i'm certain there's some changes, but can't tell how much is different as a result. maybe i'm just dysphoric still seeing so much of old me.

dysphoria is crazy because seeing a picture of myself smiling with teeth feels like i'm looking at a wild animal or something. for completely unrelated reasons I need the HRT that makes your teeth sharper.

Visceral Self Perception

favourite camera angle :>

practicing feminine gestures in the mirror but then getting bored and doing ultraman poses instead

The Princess and Her Favourite Knight

rough week but we're somehow still going :>

filled with determination :>

48 weeks / 11 months HRT now. this morning i actually felt prideful about my figure and appearance somehow. there's still a lot of dysphoric days but today felt like a euphoric one instead. i should probably feel more grateful about this, it just feels so different to the usual.

stuck looking like this

50 weeks HRT now. maybe it's just a result of time, but it feels like i've started to get a better handle of managing my mood recently. there's a lot of new limitations to handling stress post transition, but overall it feels like a positive and necessary adjustment.