Could seriously chuck for days #ihatepuking #isthisreallife

So I have known about my bio dad since I was around 12. When mom got sick the first time I wanted to reach out but never did.

Then when she got sick the second time weird stuff happened like he came into the bar I was working at them added me on fb then came to her benefit.

Now with mom being super non operable/curable sick I wanted to reach out so so bad. With the push of T and my bestie I finally did.

So last night I messaged him. Who even knew if he was my real dad...maybe mom really got around 🤷🏼‍♀️. I told him how I didnt want any more than to meet and know my bio family.

I had zero Hope's of him actually getting back to me. I mean why would he. He hasnt wanted to contact me for 27 years why would he respond.

So it literally seems like no time when he messaged me back saying he knew who I was and wanted to meet! Now he is messaging me this morning! I cant even begin to tell you how full of emotion I am right now!

My mom ask me today to have the baby before she dies...idk how people stay so strong.

She was given 6 months to live in august... I dont think I'll have her past November. It breaks my heart.

T seriously just ask me how much some baby stuff was so he knew how much he was paying....uh you haven't paid for anything that's been purchased sweetheart so stfu 😡😡😡

Daily thoughts of the third trimester:

Today it hit me. My mom will never be here for another holiday She wont be so excited making us open Christmas presents that she skillfully picked out. Even as adults. And my daughter wont get to experience the magic of Christmas from her grandma Breaks my fucking heart

If you've never had to talk to your mom about what she wants as far as funeral services then just stop. Wouldn't wish this on anyone.

I'm so pissed. I just spent 2000 of my new business money to get my sister's debt paid off so it would no longer effect me. Like that's money that i needed for my future. And she's being a bitch now saying I'm mean and vindictive when I sent her the amount she owes me

Can I have a bestfriend who texts me like every hours telling me to quit being a day piece of shit and to eat right till I'm back on track #whowantsthejob

If I make him go to bed I deal with his bitch ass for a week. He is still not home and I'm suppose to be ok with it.

Not even sure why I'm here

Is it aweful that I'm so excited for the weekend to sleep in 😍😍😍

When your so would rather hang with the dudes than you....ok they can start doing all your shit ✌✌✌