my mental health is so bad right now and ik i should tell someone but like ??? this country is getting so fucking terrifying to live in and it feels so hopeless and i just don’t see the point in even trying to get better

trying to eat as little as possible bc we are supposed to go out for valentines and i want to wear a dress and look hot and i can’t do that if i’m fat

was feeling like bingeing so i got out my lil baby puffs and weirdly enough i think it killed my binge urge but mostly bc they left a weird taste in my mouth

how i feel estimating calories

hihi!! always on the hunt for #edtwt moots 🤍 ☽ 28 (dnf / dni under 18) ☽ ednos + arfid ☽ cptsd + ocd ☽ autistic ☽ i fb if 18+ & age is clearly displayed somewhere ♡ / ↻ to be moots + appreciated

not weighing myself until my period ends and praying i lose 4 lbs in water weight

red: absolutely not yellow: sometimes or as an ingredient in a dish green: yes love will eat any time 🫶🏻 this made me feel less picky than i actually am

i hate it when i hit the scroll to the top thing too fast and then see something interesting bc i WILL scroll forever to try to find it again (and then ultimately give up tbh)

need to have my heart ruthlessly broken again so i can lose like i did when me and my ex broke up

i love summer and not being at work and being able to just focus on my goals and nothing else

anyway i’m fasting today. going to pick up my friend from dropping off her car and take her home then i need to go to the store. trying to stay busy bc i haven’t fasted since last year so i know it’s going to be rough

broke my fast w a lettuce wrap salad (like of changes lettuce wraps but in salad form). finishing off the night w one of my 90 cal ciders and a frozen dark chocolate peanut butter cup 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

i’m so tired today. i really need to start doing more on the weekends bc i feel like it takes me all day on monday to get out of my weekend funk

pls behold my 280 cal purple sludge with 30 g of protein 🫶🏻

truly have no idea what i’m going to do when i have to go back to work in august bc the entirety of my routine rn hinges on me not having to go to work or do anything

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!