I’ve just made this cause my real thoughts are too pathetic to post anywhere with my name associated

I’m 30 years old and have no friends or family in my daily orbit. Live on the other side of the world from my family and I’ve never been able to make or keep a real friend my whole life

I’m starting to come to the conclusion I’m not made for this world. Everyone hates me. I try so hard. I try so hard and I’m so tired. I don’t know what’s wrong with me

I don’t think anyone can live in this world alone forever. I don’t want to be an outsider but I’m to pathetic to do anything about it. Fuck I miss my mum

I know no one’s going to see this aswell which is even more pathetic. I wish I had the balls to kill myself and make life so much easier for my mum.

I hate myself and I’ve tried so hard to change this but I am scared it’ll never go away

I can’t keep doing this alone I can’t

Oh my god please someone please see me