I've been feeling a very familiar sense of pain or discomfort at the back of my throat, it's been there since I came home yesterday. I hoped it would have gone away during my sleep but it didn't. I fear I might be getting sick for the first time in years 🫠

My day is so easily ruined, it's so unfair. One trigger was all it took and suddenly I was punching myself hard trying to get the feelings out. I feel like an idiot.

Triggers make me want to destroy my whole entire body. But someone I know has the complete opposite reaction: their instinct is to go to bed and fall asleep in upsetting situations. They leave everything unresolved and just... sleep. It's both fascinating and frustrating to watch

The adult you think you are at 18-24 is not the same adult you will be at 25-30.

I had a moment like this the other day when I shared what felt like random facts about my family and my friend suddenly stops me, gave me this worried look and goes "...are you okay?" 😶

As someone living with mental illness it's important to master the art of knowing when to have a casual conversation and when to start a deeper or darker conversation or how to fluctuate between the two. Leaning too much in one way or the other can unfortunately ruin friendships.

I always get a little disappointed whenever a creator I like starts a new podcast and puts all of their energy towards that. Not because I don't want them to do well, I just find the vast majority of podcasts to be really boring even if I like the person and/or the topic :/

I know I shouldn't be saying this but I miss my eating disorder. I miss being good at starving myself, I miss being thin, I miss when my only problem with clothes was finding a small enough size, I miss the weird sense of validation I felt from being underweight.

It’s incredibly damaging when people spread false narratives about schizophrenia. Misinformation fuels stigma and makes it harder for those living with the condition to be understood or supported properly. Don't talk about something if you know nothing about it.

I have a feeling my EEG on Monday will be a miserable experience. I have to be sleep deprived, no caffeine before the test and then there's the test itself which doesn't seem particularly fun. But I am looking forward to getting the results.

I can ramble about just about anything at all hours of the day. I can and will start talking about insane topics if given the chance at the early hours of the morning or the late hours at night. Tiredness doesn't become a filter, if anything it weakens the inner filter lol

It feels like we've lost a lot of legends recently, rip :(

I forgot that going to my EEG tomorrow means seeing my lovely mum who's kind enough to drive me both ways, so maybe it won't be as miserable as I initially thought. I'm blessed to have good people in my life :')

I only got 3-4 hours of sleep last night, so getting up early wasn't particularly fun today but my EEG is complete! It was a strange but okay experience. It was difficult trying to find a way to relax but hopefully they got what they needed 🤷🏻‍♀️

Honestly, the only genuinely bad part of today was the cup of coffee my mum bought me at the hospital. It was disgusting. Probably the worst coffee I've ever had. I took a huge sip and nearly gagged. Lesson learned: don't trust hospital coffee.

I'm very much a "hype me up when I do something good" type of person and not so much a "shame me into getting things done" type of person. Shame fuels my avoidance. A small confidence boost however can go a long way.

months are passing by like weeks😭

Executive dysfunction aside I think one of my issues is that I've begun prioritising comfort above all else on most days. I've become very blind to the consequences of inaction. I avoid anything I don't want to do but my life can and will inevitably fall apart if that continues.