Got to share a poem today with a score produced by “The Halluci Nation” fka “The Tribe Called Red”. Honoured.

Thank you to CBC Now or Never CBC News for the opportunity to talk about suicide, mental health in my Filipino family, and my little brother/hero, Jordan. #SuicideAwareness #grief #jdbforever2021 cbc.ca/radio/nowornev…

My brother was my hero. I try to remember that even after his suicide ift.tt/iANlucC

A difficult but touching story to listen to/read. Great work CBC Now or Never. And thanks for talking about this, PDB. cbc.ca/radio/nowornev…

"I spent the past year angry and desperate to find a way to prevent my brother's final day from being more significant than the thousands of days before," says PDB who lost brother Jordan to suicide.

Starting in August, I’m collaborating with @_nextgenarts to facilitate an art-based therapy program for youth affected by violence, trauma and grief in their community. I’m grateful to be a part of it. Visit their page for registration info.

Rearrange the world…

Sometimes I get scared I’ll forget his baby face. I never do, but ya know… grief. But wait look, bowl cuts! Hope you smile sometimes like Jordan does in this photo. Or you’re weird and you smile like me.

A new relationship with my ghosts has been the hardest kind of love to build. One day I hope it can be one of the strongest kinds too.

I’ve written multiple notebooks full of poetry, journals and other scraps, after my brother died. Maybe a produced piece of art will come from some of them, but it doesn’t matter. I just needed to do it. That’s the point of writing, and I used to forget that all the time.

I find it funny when ppl are like, “come out man, it’s gonna be fun and good for you” and then I go out and just stand there… sad… and outside lmao.

It's oddly exhilirating to have a physical ailment for a short period when you live with mental illness daily. People know how to care for a cold.

October 23rd, 2022: PDB’s aura I am (apparently) grounded, thoughtful, spiritually connected, and divinely guided. I am also incredibly anxious, trash at deep-breathing, guarded, in an intense state of flux, and need to eat more root vegetables.

“I died and yet, I live”

My short doc about grief, “Tell Me A Story About Someone You Miss” was selected as a top 10 finalist for TVO’s short doc contest. It’s also up for a People’s Choice Award, and you can vote for it, link below. shortdoc.tvo.org/tell-me-a-stor…

“Tell Me A Story About Someone You Miss” a short doc about grief is up for a TVO People’s Choice Award. Hope you enjoy our 5min cut, you can watch here: shortdoc.tvo.org/tell-me-a-stor…