I kind of knew I wasn’t gonna be straight from the start. But I did not want to be gay. The locker room made it very hard to deny, yet I still didn’t know why I liked it so much. I’d very occasionally allow myself a gay bate fantasy. When I did I’d cum faster and harder.

I bedded all the females I could in my teens and 20s. I wasn’t great at it but I did okay. I kept thinking the right one would correct my “ailment”. I also drank alot. One night I got on a phone dating service. I met and made a date with a man. Then I panicked and flaked.

While still in my panicked I met my wife. I was convinced getting married would surely correct this “problem”. So we were married a mere few months later. I thought a steady supply of pussy would fix it all. Well friends, that was wrong on multiple levels lol. Soon it was back.

Finally I had to know. I got on adult friend finder right after I turned 30. I was convinced I would hate it and I could be straight. I met a man and corresponded with him for awhile. We met in a public place, talked a short bit, and then went to a hotel in the middle of the day

He went to kiss me, something I didn’t want to do at all. But I let him kiss me just to get things moving. Friends it was electric. I couldn’t believe how much I liked it. Feeling his goatee tangled with mine while our tongues danced was something else. And foreplay went on..

He was wise to savor the time. He knew I’d panic when it was done. And he was right. As soon as I nutted I couldn’t leave fast enough. I felt bad after. I called him in a few days and apologized. He laughed and told me it’s not uncommon for first timers. We ended up being friends

We saw each other occasionally for a few years. Maybe twice a year. But it was difficult as we lived over 2 hours apart. And he was well established in his likes. Which I needed. But I also wanted to experience more things. He’d said I would eventually figure out I was gay.

I was gradually coming to terms with it although I considered myself bisexual. Sometimes I still do. I wanted to bottom. And that was simply not an option with him. And he began to pressure me to come out. I just wasn’t there. I don’t know that I ever will.

But one thing this journey has taught me is not to speak in absolutes. You never know what life has for you. Just taking life as it comes is the best lesson I have learned. Anyway just my musings this morning for anyone interested. Always happy to chat with anyone about it

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