i grew up thinkin everybody had a heart like mine & when i tell you life humbled me real fast

some traumas never heal

The roads all lead back to you, and I'll walk them until the blisters go through my shoes.

0% energy for now.

at my lowest, again.

I'm literally out here having the absolute worst time of my life and I have no one to talk to about it.

tired of being strong

I seriously hate you...You should've been here fighting with me and you fuckin left. You fuckin gave up on us, and your son, like we meant nothing. You could've helped us... You could've been here and fought like a mfin man. But no, you left it to me to do it completely alone...

My medication helps me smile around my family but I'm dying inside... I just need answers. I'm fr going crazy just waiting.

I feel like, this is it... I feel like, this will kill me.

I don't understand what I ever did to deserve this pain. This deep of a betrayal. I honestly think you'd rather see me dead than alive.

delayed grief is dangerous. you don't cry. you're numb, and you move on like nothing significant happened. you keep suppressing everything until the day it finally escapes, and when it does, it's like a dam bursting, flooding your mind and heart, making it difficult to cope

My medication has me so numb I don't even recognize myself anymore. I'm just this shell of someone I used to be.

My doctor said that I'm suffering from severe physical and emotional trauma, equivalent to someone who has been to war... My nervous system is in survival mode all the time, constant tremors. It's fight or flight and I'm so tired of fighting...

I wish I could go back. I'd grab my hand before I walked out of that gate and tell myself to stay. The people I thought loved me was always against me. I know I didn't know back then but, if I could... I would've stayed. I wouldn't have moved an inch off of that porch.

never feel guilty for doing what's best for you.

People actually exhaust me so much, like what even is this generation?