Living with depression and anxiety • no motivation to leave your bed • dreading leaving your house • not being able to go out • unable to make new friends • being paranoid or restless • mentally hurting • zoning out a lot, ignoring people • not being yourself

i'm sick of making things worse i'm sick of being hurt i'm sick of crying myself to sleep i’m sick of hating everything i'm sick of faking a smile i'm sick of feeling this way i’m sick of letting people down i'm sick of being me.

“are you okay?” me: “no, but it’s okay.”

i'm just so tired of this. my body is tired, my mind is a mess. i just really want to lay in bed and never get up. i'm just so tired of life.

i'm disappointed in myself.. because i know i'm better than the choices i keep making and the things i choose to deal with.

over-thinking ruins you. ruins the situation, twists things around, makes you worry and just makes everything much worse than it actually is.

when i’m hurt, i shut down, i turn into a total bitch i shut off my emotions i act differently towards everything and everyone and i hate it.

The worst feeling is when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care.

i don't think anyone really understands how tiring it is to act okay and always be the 'strong' one when in reality you're close to the edge.

i cannot make you understand. i cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. i cannot even explain it to myself.

the worst sadness is the sadness you've taught yourself to hide.

my biggest problem is overthinking everything

the real reason why you're sad? you're attached to people who have been distant with you. you're paying attention to people who ignore you. you make time for people who are "too busy" for you. you're too caring to people who are care less when it comes to you. let those people go

i don't think people really understand just how stressful it is to explain what's on your mind, when you don't even understand it yourself.

please don't expect me to always be good and kind and loving there are times when i'll be cold and thoughtless and really hard to understand

so sick of going through the same shit over and over again.

you hide when you cry because you want to be seen as a strong person, at the same time though, you hate how nobody notices how broken you are.

“I’m tired” “Go to sleep then” “No, you don’t understand.”

do you ever write a really long message and about halfway through you're like "you know what, they don't even care" and end up deleting it.

Sorry for being so fucked up. Sorry for being such a failure. Sorry for being a disgrace. Sorry for being me.