Not a single minute passes without my dad on my mind no matter how much I smile or laugh, there’s always a lump in my heart, a constant ache deep in my soul that nobody notices

The thoughts are back………

for someone who has isolation as their coping mechanism, i hope you find a lover who understands your silence. life’s already hard, be with someone who makes living easier

Crashing out every now and then bc the world did in fact end when my dad died

still feeling like this…

I think I lost my spark. I don’t talk as much, I keep to myself, and I’ve mastered the art of distance. It’s not that I’m mad or bitter. I just don’t have the energy to show up the way I used to. Somewhere along the way, I slipped into this “I don’t care” phase, 1/2

ghosted people without meaning to, and became comfortable in my own silence. Maybe it’s healing, maybe it’s just exhaustion or maybe it’s depression. Either way, I’m learning that sometimes, pulling away is part of finding yourself again 2/2

Petty sure heaven’s decore wouldn’t be my vibe

how body dysmorphia is like

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from a young age i knew everybody was wrong and i was right

I just went through my archives I miss me

Now it all makes sense! My mom’s sister drowned before she was even born and here I am terrified of water for no reason

every 6 months i realise how much of an idiot i was 6 months ago