I am a self-sabotaging failure.

The end of the dream The beginning of everything

I feel called out

I love my girlfriend so much it makes me cry tears of joy for knowing such a beautiful human being. 🩵

The idea of the internet as a third space for co-identities, "avatars", "pseudonyms", doesn't really exist for normies. They love selfies and IDs - the net is a purely marketing platform for their Face, like the mall. They love Facebook. They'll love ID Identification.

I appreciate all the kind replies. Suicide, especially when it's someone so close to you, makes you want to tear your organs out from guilt. All you can do is never forget what they gave to you and the world, and become someone you know they'd be proud of, a living memory

✶・𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔤𝔬𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔫 𝔯𝔬𝔬𝔪・✶

what substance do i have to abuse to survive another month

Today was beyond exhausting. Went to a driving lesson, had a panic attack, my whole body froze and I couldn't use my arms or walk for like 20-30 minutes and ended up in a hospital. Great thing to have on top of being sick and dehydrated from vomiting.

I don't want to be a shallow human being. I need to find interests that will give me more depth to my existence.

memory🦋