instead of eating i am currently just looking at old bodychecks and measuring my waist to remind myself that i need to go back to how i was

just binged so i’m gonna do a liquid fast for as long as i can!! wish me luck ^_<

i’ll never understand that period of time where i was trying to built muscle in my arms and then hating how my arms looked with gradual muscle growth… why did i do that

irl just posted a bodycheck on tiktok and i’m gonna kms now

something about this video

i keep going from 300 cals one day to 1400 the next and i don’t think my body is appreciating this very much

why am i getting thoughts of bingeing in the morning before school so that tomorrow it’ll seem like i’ve fasted for such a long time…. does anyone get me. am i going insane.

his tini tiny legs…

whenever my mental health gets worse it’s always a guess if that’ll mean i’m gonna be in a binge cycle or if i’ll start fasting for days

not quite bingeing. not quite starving. feeling like shit.

polish pickled vegetable salad i love u

yearning for summer 2022 honeymoon phase when I would eat 500 cals but manage to have 3 “meals” a day

i got my period today no wonder i had eaten sm yesterday… but now i’m fat and in pain so maybe i should just kms

i keep fucking bingeing. fuck my stupid life

i don’t think i’d be so upset abt my weight gain if the weight went to my thighs more than my stomach….