The amount of people I see claiming they have BED when in reality it’s because all of them are or were restricting at some point 😂 you learn so much about life through recovery

2025 is going to go down as the worst year of my life smh

ur extreme hunger is NOT BED. yes, it feels out of control because ur body is sending so many hunger cues to help u live & repair itself after so much neglect!! it's okay to be scared, it is NOT okay to ignore the things ur body is telling u. it is not the enemy, it never was 🫶

One thing that keeps me from relapsing is the idea of being left behind. Like imagine all you guys recover and move on and I’m still stuck here… hell no

Okay so like how are these so called Omads that people do on tiktok not just straight up eating disorders 😀 and people be saying they omad for YEARS

TW Be so fr you were eating 800-100 calories a day for 8 months ! And she’s encouraging people in the comments that it’s safe to do this for even a whole year

Sometimes I have dreams and I’m me again ( the person I was before the disorder) it makes me sad.

I feel like I’m the only one who hasn’t gotten my period back yet. What if she never comes back am I doing something wrong 🥹? By next month it will be a year

This weight gain isn’t going fast enough and it’s freaking me out but I don’t have extreme hunger anymore. I hate living in this constant fear spiral not knowing how much I’m going to gain and when it will stop.

Why are my brothers going back to their gym and diet regime whilst im in recovery and am at the lowest point in my life 😀

When my coping strategy is isolation 😭😀 cut off my best friend of 12 years because I’m so afraid of how she will perceive me when I overshoot 🥲

Remembering how deep in my ed I’d scroll online grocery stores instead of instagram or TikTok 😀

You can’t go back to before your ed developed, but you can start now and change the ending ❤️‍🩹

Wow so relapse thoughts magnify when I go on tiktok 😀

Bro I can’t do this why did my ed have to take everything from me. I can’t bear to stay friends with them. We’ve been a trio for years but every time I think of going and meeting up with them or seeing them I have a panic attack.

Love how I can now have a proper sweet treat instead of a cup of green tea (aka swamp water) and half a date :/

I swear I’m not normal and have something else undiagnosed because my fear of weight gain wakes me up at 4am every morning with panic attacks 😀

Yes it could have been different. But it’s not. So it’s time to heal now because you can’t change what’s already happened ❤️

Don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this tbh