my faborite thins artee ru9ined

i hate me like you do

wasyeb my 20s on someone that hatedf me

i jubt wanna feel okay agai,

i've tried so hard reaching out. I've tried so hard to make new friends. to get new people in my life but it never works. why am i so hard to care about whats wrong with me why cabt i matter to someone no one checks on me no one asks for my time im tired of feeling so alone

The guilt of what you did made you keep doing it lol I wish I could get this shit out of my head

If it wasn't public and it worked would anyone have even noticed

My favorite things are all ruined

My best friend is a crisis hotline

You have some deep healing you need to do mentally I just wish you didn't make sure I need it too

I miss feeling safe and comfortable now all I feel is alone at brst

i miss just loving you now i'm terrified of you

I'll have a few good days but I keep ending up back here. It's impossible to replace all that I lost all that I never had. I don't want to feel like this anymore why is it so easy to replace me I just wanted to be happy and know someone loves me but now there's just nothing

I wish I could think of you as my ex but I just think of you as my abuser

You destroyed what little confidence I had I feel like a shell of a person. I'm no one. I've never felt so small in my life. I wish I wasn't alive. I hate that it didn't work. I feel like I'm carrying a scarlet letter that tells everyone I'm a loser that can't even die right.

I was trapped in cycles of abuse and even now that it's over I still feel like it's happening I can't get this shit out of my head

These songs are for me not for you

I should get drunk and cry myself to sleep