will NEVER make a potential future child of mine finish their plate if they’re full I resent my parents so much for this

omad cals estimate?? I wanna say it’s more than a cup of rice, guessing around 550 cals for the lot??

why is my brain addicted to the feeling of doing things I should’nt be doing

cursed from the day I was told it takes 7 years for an anorexic to recover *sigh

I’ve eaten rice every night for a week now but I can finally wrap my wrist around my arm so maybe it’s all good??

Bf took this of me today and I almost cried when I saw its been 1 month without a scale I feel like I’ve gained 5kgs

Stuck in an endless cycle Until I can successfully remove my dinner omad and just rely on snacking ill never beat the evening self loathing marathon

“Hope u heal” sends me into fight or flight

photo of me next to my friend rlly makes me sad for the lack of feminine curve I’ve dammed from my body bc who is that pre pubescent boy there 😭

‘surf the urge’ can’t surf when my urge feels like a tsunami destroying anything that gets in its way

“you deserve to eat” no the fuck i dont

Just binged on raw pancake batter lowkey so good tho was like fluffy and tasted like vanilla

June 2023 vs June 2025

won’t allow myself to order the pancakes but will devour batter by the spoonful at 2am

the thought of eating during the day makes my toes curl i cannot manage the overwhelming guilt when I need to be productive or work I save all my calories for the night so I can sleep off the debilitating anxiety

any y’all ever suggested the idea of an open relationship to your bf and had it go well??

woops

nothing makes me happier than beach + sun bake