You can tell I was trembling while doing this 💀 (Photo so it could censor)

I hate when I send a photo of myself to my bf and he doesn't start glazing.. (-、-) It's a punch to the gut of "oouuwww he doesn't think I look good... |_・).."

i’m back to drinking my white monster every morning already i love white monster , who will drink a white monster and celebrate my discharge from the hospital with me ? cheers to all ♡ ♡ ♡

i want to pass as a guy, not as c!s

My sister knows EVERYTHING She asked if I had a scale and why (hidden in old backpack inside a box) She's seen my scars (I wear longsleeves besides when I sleep) She knows my notifications & asks about them (usually off) She NOTICES EVERYTHING BUT I HIDE EVERYTHING WTF???

I hate being trans and non passing.

My family is back on the mindset of me "not deserving / having to earn" food soooo let's see how much I'll lose I went grocery shopping recently so I still have food options available but I'm gonna limit myself more to make them last FINALLY NOT BEING FORCE FED ANYMORE!! :D

My sister definitely knows about my arms My mom stormed in the restroom while my pants were down so she might've seen my thighs She ended up yelling at me but I wont get into the details I'm gonna force myself to go to school tmr so I don't have to deal with my mom

Who(?)

I need to start walking more often. It was the main reason I was able to feel decent how I just feel like a pig. I hate getting up though I've only been getting around 3k maximum steps this month 💀

Suicide

Crazy how BOTH of my sisters are HUGE ON MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS But when it comes to me they can't ever seem to understand. I will NEVER open up to them ever again They always come up with bullshit ass excuses "yougottapushyourselfbleeehhhhhhh" Stfu.

Thru out my early childhood whenever my Mom was passed out drunk, I'd forcibly wrap her arms around myself because that was the only way I'd get any form of affection from her

I remember being SAd at a party while I was "sleeping" and I went to cry to my mom about it But she was too drunk to care So I waited for her to sleep so I can sob in her arms while she was passed out because I just wanted to feel the warmth and comfort of her arms

The green smoothie cancels out the hot pocket and chicken nugget trust me 🤫

I forgot to censor hold up

I lwk let some whimpers out

I've cut my left arm, both thighs, chest and stomach, but refuse to cut my right arm for future bottom surgery But I really hate having an empty arm. I think it looks ugly+ recent second thoughts 💀 (photo for censor)

I hate when I don't cut deep enough and my scars aren't a deep redish pink 🥲

I'M SO BAD AT INTERACTING I'M SO SORRY. PLEASE INTERACT WITH ME BRO 😭😢😢