at sixteen, you still think you can escape from your father. you aren't listening to his voice speaking through your mouth, you don't see him in the way you hold your body, you don't hear his whisper in your blood.

if i can change, i hope i never know.

⠀ fiddling with their rings, vacant gaze lost somewhere distant. ⠀

⠀ if only marijuana were growing out here … ⠀

⠀ coughs, hoarse. ⠀

⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⁎⠀ ଼⁀➴ ⠀.⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀

⠀ accepts the offering, sheepish in nature. misty’s willingness to jump to his side is … heartwarming? unnerving? can’t decide which. both, maybe. 〝 … thanks, misty. 〞 ⠀

in another universe， i am easier to love.

i sat with my anger long enough until she told me her real name was grief.

⠀ 〝 you can start by gathering sticks. tai’s gonna pop every blood vessel in her head if it isn’t done an hour before sundown. 〞 coughs again, this time into the handkerchief. the unforgiving cold is burning their throat. ⠀

i was a boy, which meant i was a murderer of my childhood. & like all murderers, my god was stillness.

⠀ … achoo. ⠀

⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ … ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ݁⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ YELL꩜WJACKE7.⠀ ⠀ ⠀

⠀ 〝 … why did you do it, 𝙼𝙸𝚂𝚃𝚈.? why didn’t you let them catch me? 〞 ⠀

come here and hold me， make me feel better. promise me i'm good enough， tell me you can love me， even the worst of me. even the worst of me， even the worst.

⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ … ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ݁⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ I 𝐊͟𝐈͟𝐋͟𝐋͟𝐄͟𝐃 A PART OF 𝐌͟𝐄 ⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ✟O KEEP 𝐘꩜𝐔 ALIVE.⠀ ⠀ ⠀

⠀ is this thing on? ⠀