love being pakistani bc we don’t say i love you, we say ‘tujh mein rab dikhta hai’ which means ‘i see my God in you’

i should’ve lost my mind but God

even more than David who lamented, or Paul who wrestled with his flesh, i liken myself to the thief. deserving of the price He paid and with only one simple request — Lord. remember me.

maybe it will be okay

found out today two of my pt doctors are christian and now they’re praying for me since they know i am as well. what a blessing

if i know in this life i will bear suffering, the question remains — how do i suffer well?

i look to Christ Jesus who was brutally crucified yet did so joyfully, for His suffering meant love and salvation for the many

happiness is happenstance as in it’s based on external condition. joy is the state God intended for us to be in no matter what’s happening

i derive joy from the transmutation of my suffering to love and service

i derive joy from making my suffering meaningful

tragic Christian meets animated cartoons that hold hidden themes & subtexts of the beauty and hope within the horrors of life >>>>>

if you’re gonna be friends with me i’m gonna send voice memos sorry it’s the yapper in me

ah yes the age old question — to be mysterious or to be unhinged. which shall it be

no better feeling than getting Holy Spirit downloads

I spent years trying to climb out of my darkness. God kept pushing me back down. Thought He hated me. Then I realized He was drowning me in it on purpose. Like baptism but backwards. Under the black water something grows that can't grow in sunlight. Seeds need soil not sky. I

the Lord showed Saint Silouan how the enemy is defeated and how to acquire a pure mind: ‘keep thy mind in hell, and despair not.’ in other words, never cease to consider yourself unworthy of God and an abomination and desolation before Him. at the same time, never cease to place

sometimes God lets you hit rock bottom so you realize He is the rock at the bottom. 2 car accidents within 2 months at the start of this year propelled me into a season of isolation, pain, and stillness. and it was there that God met me, and i began to also meet myself.