related, regarding the nature of protests and press

it is pretty weird that lately protesters DISLIKE press coverage. historically seeking is is the whole damn point

but this makes sense when the mechanism of protest effectiveness is 'extortion'
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this is about 1 gram of caffeine a day for the past two decades, by the way

meaning has come

and will not be medicated away any longer

i cannot navigate this dread when i'm in the throes

something has happened when i wasn't looking, when i was robotically, efficiently pursuing- while pursued by the tiger

a truth was revealed, but it only stands in my way, stolidly, as i try to push past blindly in my haste

how do we unweave this net

we do not look with our heart-eyes

seeing hurts, seeing hurts

i have this dread of Doing

specifically, to return to serious programming

i've done a lot of armchair theorizing, and mulling, and gnashing

to resolve this *bananas* dread before Doing

but the answers to why, might only be found in the doing

so: do i really want to know why

my crew: hillbilly idiots who aren't entrenched in a paradigm

streetlight discursive ablation

blocking* everyone who is discoursing about an ad

(*placing an x on the stage where they should stand

to be hit by a falling piano)

lesbians do have stories

i like at the end when andy dufresne says 'red, i think this is the beginning of a shawshank redemption'

beefing with people who can contribute *nothing* but inhabiting a position

ngmi boys

which worm would provide the best brain-symbiosis

can we do a mitochondria but with worms

anecdotes *are* data

to generate data requires a theory-laden instrument of enumeration- what gets counted, how, and why

*one* observation *with excellent theory*, over-rides *infinite* observations instrumentalized using *terrible* theories

honor the anecdote, it is science

we need bawts of grizzled dudes offering to virtually grill with you

i don’t have great friendship object permanence

i wonder if Faith is central to the institution of friendship

self care