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I spiraled today. I'm leaving the tweets up because that's how I felt in the moment. I tried to sit with the feelings. I binge ate Popeyes. I talked to my best friend. I'm...on shaky ground, but I'm better. I know I need to talk to husband. I will. Maybe not today, but I will.

Name change because right now I can't take the dark humor I had when I originally made this account.

I'm feeling some kind of way today. I was looking through my year's Amazon orders and stumbled across the things I ordered before the miscarriage (a rainbow muslin blanket and a felt letter board to do the announcement) and I'm just... still gutted. It hits at such weird times.

If I am honest with my therapist this week we will have to talk about the feelings I’m trying to avoid. However, I’d rather just keep avoiding them. It’s easier and right now also more fun. *runs away to Norway*

Had a really hard therapy session on Friday and a huge fight with my husband on Saturday. Really not feeling this Monday existence. Scared about the future too. I may have to be brave soon.

Why yes thank you for reminding me I was due January 6! Thank you! I totally forgot! Thank you for bringing this up right before the holiday Abbott

I really think I want to be done. I don't know if I can do another round, even if we have embryos left. My ANA is still high. I still feel cursed. And my marriage is struggling. It just doesn't seem like the right time, and I kind of don't want to be 40 with a toddler. #failedivf

I’m still alive. I’ve just not been thinking about TTC. Due date passed last week without much fanfare. I’ve been keeping myself busy. I try not to think about what could have been. Still not sure if I wanna try again.