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hi, I’m 161 days sober & today hasn’t gotten off to the greatest start, I’m not feeling that hot. so instead of pontificating I’m just going to show you my beautiful earrings. love y’all.

Alicia A-Z, PhD, she/her It says everything about our society's complex fear of women's sexuality. Boobs are associated with nursing and motherhood but they also turn people on, and I think that combination scares people. They're just too powerful!

real question: what about boobs aren’t classy?

being attracted to straight men is so wild. the bar is like: omg he reads for fun & is nice to me? he’s a ten.

the great thing about getting sober is you’ll have whole groups of people telling you that if you simply don’t drink & get to a meeting you’ve had a good day.

it’s 2PM & I’ve done those things. my to-do list is long & my imposter syndrome is palpable—but it’s been a good day.

it is a truth universally acknowledged that hot girls love astrology & read tarot.

the new thing I absolutely must have is this walking pad. does anyone have one? I have visions of walking & virtuously reading peer-reviewed scholarship.

the husband says no but also I don’t listen to him so.

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160 days sober today, I can’t believe it. early last Nov. I bribed myself to attend a recovery meeting by saying I could drink after if I just went. I haven’t had a drink since & I couldn’t be more proud.

also, hi cleavage police. stay mad.

any day there’s poetry from students in your inbox is a good day

a reply guy slid into my DMs & said he was bad at understanding Shakespeare. I told him to go watch the 2015 film version of Macbeth & we’d talk about it. he comes back w this question like a literary scholar.

I don’t just train Shakespeareans in the classroom.

I have thought about this post for the last 15 hours and all I can say is, it’s me. Hearing from others is affirming, and accepting it’s me is setting me free.

Inspired by Alicia A-Z, PhD, she/her to tackle the overwhelming backlog of emails in my inbox. The shame about being behind on relying has just gotten me even further behind. But I made a folder for everything that needs reply and put all the emails in there as a start. Still overwhelmed 😂

another day sober: I tackled my inbox this AM while listening to a recovery meeting. I’m trying to accept & even embrace this difficult semester, which is also beautiful when it comes to the classes I’m teaching. I feel like I’m emerging from a dark, dark place & I’m grateful.

Alicia A-Z, PhD, she/her I now *swear* by having a 'Book a meeting with me' link at the end of email signature. Saves everyone time.

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tackled my inbox this morning. one of the main issues was appointment requests, so I made a editable sign up sheet with my availability over the next two weeks to minimize back & forth emails. it was a small idea, but helpful, so I thought I'd share.

I always tell my PhD students the worst fight my now-husband and I had was the result of internalized stressors my first year on the TT.

The jump from PhD student to TT prof is a lot. Be kind to yourself.

my first year w stable academic employment was the worst in my life. I got a TT job & then stumbled into a depressive episode so acute I don’t remember most of my first year on the job

new assistant profs, I see you. DM me if you need support—you can be both grateful & drowning

I’m grateful for the detailed responses to my overflowing inbox question, for the compassion. some people just truly do not get what it’s like to live through periods of debilitating mental illness. crawling out can be brutal & terrifying, no matter how cushy your job is.