Why does he want to be around on a day like this anyway? Seren has better things he could be doing — like kissing women because he’s too afraid to be himself.

good for him. Yeongsu doesn’t want to do anything, so there’s no point in Seren eating time trying to take him out somewhere or be unnecessarily affectionate.

i feel like neither a child nor an adult. i am a botched， failed creature， combining the worst qualities of each.

it is so much safer not to feel， not to let the world touch me.

i make coffee. i pretend i'm in love with the idea of being alive. i make a point not to stare at the knives sitting on the counter top by the stove.

He doesn’t turn when he hears the 𝑹eader call his name, but he recognizes the voice.

His head finally turns to acknowledge the other, hands in his pockets as bare feet move from the chilly water through the sand to meet Seren halfway. “What did you bring?” He asked out of curiosity.

Quiet blinks were taken as he tries to think of how to respond. He doesn’t get why Sihyeok spoils him so much… but since they’d been enjoying more meals together, his cheeks have rounded out a bit. It was a good sign. “I can give you some money to help out with the cost.”

Yeongsu would reach for the sleeve covering his forearm to pull it up and show the bruise sustained from defending himself during the serious conversation he said he was going to initiate. “As well as I expected it to.” He’d walk with Seren to sit beside on a bench.

// @MONSTEROFKNIVES yeah maybe don’t fucking steal other people’s layouts AND usernames. Image to the right is proof that I made it, and I never gave consent for anyone to use it. Taking the username is sick too but it was available bc i flipped the acct so idgaf about that.

Awake at what cost

📖 : Invisible Book by Cecily Anne Anne Paterson

rip

His face is bloodied, digits dripping with the ichor bleeding from organs he’d torn away and devoured — a dead man before him on the concrete. His relapse hit hard… but frankly he’s losing care for everything. He doesn’t care that this man lost his life.

eugh… awake at what cost.

. . . Seren .ᐣ

uhm do — do you want to come over… maybe .ᐣ

only if you want to — whenever is ok

they know where you live .ᐣ Do you need a ride .ᐣ