Just drove through LA traffic.

I’m no longer sure cancer is the worst thing that’s happened to me in the last year.

#thankscancer #mentalhealth

I’m helping my dad/parents out as he recovers from a hip replacement surgery. He’s having mild/normal side effects that are keeping him hospitalized for a couple days (low blood pressure, mostly).

But man… the frustrating information flow and having to manage communication

And here’s where I still need to skill-build.

This evening the intrusive thoughts are stepping on my joy from the last few days.

“What if this is just a brief recovery? What if I’m roleplaying an ok person?”

I put them to bed kinda quickly, but it’s such a tough reminder of

Went to a concert with my brother and one of our lifelong best friends.

Midway through, I had one of those moments where I felt the totality of what I’ve been through in the last year versus the ability to enjoy a night like this.

So I cried my face off in a dark, loud room,

First beer in a while. Still thinking of Jason every time. Shoutout to you, bud 💜

#thankscancer #mentalhealth

It’s 4/20, so we might as well have a conversation about weed 💚

It’s great - end of conversation!

Except… I don’t get the education surrounding it.

My parents are both hippies of the 60’s/70’s who have medical issues that warrant real medicinal use. They’re not unfamiliar or

On the road to see my my dad & help with his hip replacement surgery.

We’re both in remission from cancer after 2023 diagnosis.

Both of our first stops after were to orthopedic specialists for our hips.

I love the genetics we share for the most part.

These not so much 😬

If you told child me that I was going to be a mutant when I grew up, I would have been fucking stoked.

#thankscancer #xmen

I run (literally 🏃🏻‍♂️) to the pharmacy to pick up my synthroid more often than not.

It’s .7 miles, and I kinda just cruise it to get some sun/bloodflow.

Amy, the pharmacist, is an awesome/snarky boss of a human. We have a great rapport.

It’s hot today, and I was breathing

One positive from my last cancer diagnosis and treatment is that I developed another nice workout habit.

I typically do 20-25 minutes of posterior chain-focused body weight exercises/mobility every afternoon before basketball or running - I have shitty hamstrings that I have to

The symmetry of my diagnoses/treatments is wild.

First diagnosis 02/11/18, finish treatment 04/17/19 - 5 years ago today.

Second diagnosis 02/26/23, finish treatment 04/09/23.

February and April are... interesting months in my calendar 😂🤷🏻‍♂️

#thankscancer #melanoma

Cancer steals so much of our agency and bandwidth, especially during diagnosis and treatment - your life becomes fully geared towards one objective.

In remission, I’ve found having options again to be strange.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s awesome, but having had active treatment

Today was a day where cancer didn’t dominate my brain (which… is ironic as I’m now posting about it 😂).

This would be a very tolerable level of psychological background panic.

#thankscancer #MentalHealthMatters

Update: My hips held through a sixth straight day of hoops. Felt great!

There will not be a seventh. We rest tomorrow.

#thankscancer #ballislife

Here's a new one: I was talking with a loan officer about my last several years of income. She said something the effect of 'So the picture I'm getting is that you sold a business and then took some time off in 2023 - or was that to build your new business? What happened and

I’ve played basketball 5 days in a rows and my hips are aaaangry this morning.

Wait til they find out we’re going for 6 this afternoon.

Arthritis and torn labrums can kiss my… well, hips, actually.

#thankscancer #ballislife

My first cancer diagnosis was over 6 years ago. It seems like it was yesterday, and a lifetime ago. It feels like it's still with me today.

My last cancer diagnosis was over a year ago. It seems like it was yesterday, and also a lifetime ago. It's definitely still with me today.

I'm about to go to a dermotology appointment in 30 minutes. I have a spot near my junk (more like in the crease of my groin, but I'm gonna have to bare some awkward skin) that needs to be looked at.

My dermatologist is an acquaintance's wife. 😂🤷🏻‍♂️

#thankscancer #melanoma

Cancer has profoundly eradicated my sense of time.

I've never followed a conventional life schedule - skipped some grades, took college at my own pace, always been self-employed, got cancer a couple times before it's socially acceptable (😬)...

But I've always had something

I'm going through some weird general anxiety tonight, which is atypical for me. Usually, I can attribute anxiety to something.

So I've been shotgun-firing coping mechanisms to see what sticks. I've journaled, worked out, took a super long shower, and now I'm decimating a jar of