"But I will be far away. And very drunk and not caring"

Shes spent this Christmas taking off her wedding ring.

And she supposes she is wishing * 𝐌𝐀𝐂𝐀𝐁𝐑𝐄 𝐶𝑅𝑂𝑊𝑁𝐸𝐷 .ᐟ merry Christmas

//not going to lie Never felt so fucking lonely in my life

Weddings? Shes had her wedding pictures locked away incase she burned them in a fit of rage.

She remembers Taisei's wedding.... Never had she been so happy for her oldest and dearest friend.

Does it count if I haven't stopped drinking?

"And not participating is not an option!"

She is invoking her status as his best friend. Especially while she is of a sane a mind as is sane for her.

"And when will you not make excuses to not spend time with me? I need carefree time with my best friend"

"One drink" So much had changed, but at the time, so little too. For one, she was right back to where she was when they first met. "Besides, you're going to miss me"

Tying up loose ends. She can't remember the last time she took on a solo job.

Wait..... Is this what sobriety feels like?

//rather pissed off right now to be honest

Oh she has been having so much fun!!! Shes grateful for sound proofed rooms

//in so much physical and mental pain that I don't know what to do tbh

Despite taking her medication she has that mabic glint in her eyes. It had been weeks since she had seen * 𝐌𝐀𝐂𝐀𝐁𝐑𝐄 𝐶𝑅𝑂𝑊𝑁𝐸𝐷 .ᐟ and boy had she certainly been out to play. But now she is back, and does she have alot to tell him.

//heartbreaking to think I might not be seeing this face for much longer

//if possible feeling worse