And it has started. I just had to pay $544 for my loan payment, which my ex is unable to pay for. Why did I pay it? I am the co-signer. F**k my life!!!!!!

Good morning. I am calling today 'tough Tuesday.' I have loads of meetings, deadlines due today, and I decided to work from home where my ex still lives with me. Please pray for me so I can survive today.

It would be nice to have someone in my life who has time for me. Someone who wants to hang out with me and not be someone's backup plan. A person who I do not ask if they are available to spend time with me. A person who I dont need to plan 3 weeks ahead to spend time with. :-(

Hey guys, here is another look at the hairy chest. I am thinking of shaving it.

It's Sunday evening, and another friendless weekend has come and gone. I should be used to this by now.

I decided to go to the bath house instead. I was there for an hour until a guy on grindr asked me to go to his place. I did go, and we did make out, but I was not into him. I could not perform. I am soooo done with the local gay scene.

Ok, do you guys want to know why I am feeling low today?? I am tired of the local guys saying how good-looking I am and how they want to meet me. When the time comes to meet, they disappear. I had a hookup setup last night, and the other guy ghosted me. Sigh!!!

I decided to check out a local hiking trail, which rumor has it that there is a gay cruising area.

I am going out for another walk. The anxiety gods are at it again and got to me. I am already stressed and upset. I don't know where I am going, but it is better than staying home right now.

Good Sunday afternoon. Sunday breakfast for lunch.

Another picture from last night. A friend of mine took this picture.

Happy Caturday morning with headbutts and kisses.

Queer and beers event

All you can eat Chinese lunch today. Yeah, it's been that kind of week. I don't think I will be having dinner tonight.

Good morning. It my day off. It's toast and coffee time.