// my best friend died last week. It's just now really sinking in. I'm scared, I'm broken, and in the real world I don't know how to talk about it. Everytime I try to say her name it feels like my lungs are on fire.

//i miss this, i miss all of you, i miss my family. Jesus Adams Foster Stef Adams Foster Brandon Foster

I suppose I'm no longer needed here...

My kids keep jumping ship... I wouldn't leave my wife or children unless they no longer wanted me...

"There is a problem with wounded birds...either they fly away from you one day or else they never get better. They stay hurt no matter what"

//Theres an active shooter on my college campus &they won't tell us anything. We aren't on lock down, appears there is no protocal for this

today is a new day full of new possibilities. Remember that you are loved and charished

my love? are you okay? Stef Adams Foster

This is so accurate x.com/DetStefAFoster…

// I really love how you are the perfect father in public but the second we get in the car you reduce me to tears with only your words and mind games. I'm so sick of this. Why do I keep falling for it?

My love Stef Adams Foster ?

// I kid you not, I asked out two different guys that I grew up with out on a date, they are both gay now. Apparently, I have a type 😂

// my wife and kids have voiced their feelings, I suppose it's my turn. I've always been the piece that didn't fit, the broken one, the outcast. I've always pushed people away, so afraid to lose that I never gain. My feelings aren't easily explained, but like many of you...

The fosters made me feel like I was apart of something bigger, I wasn't lost anymore because I was where I belonged and to be honest, I'm beginning to feel lost again. I often tale on the roles I see on screen and without lenas heart, stefs courage, Brandon's dream,

Callies resilience, Marianas defiance, Jesus's gentleness, and judes acceptance. I'm not really sure who I am. Which sounds silly but maybe the largest tale away is to take what they have taught me and well, be me. (That thought terrifies me). I'm afraid of losing the community

That has given so much to me. As someone who often walks the tight rope between wanting to live or not, I can tell you that the world the fosters shows, where nothing is perfect but the good doesn't stop trying gave me enough hope to save me many many times. I want to thank

Everyone, the cast, the crew, the entire community/fandom, and my family. My wife who never gives up on me Stef Adams Foster And my amazing kids. We will get through this. I'm not leaving. I don't know if the rant I just had made sense but I feel slightly better. Much love, lena❤

//"Let's pretend:  we are happy That our hearts aren't heavy That our minds arent mangled Let's pretend: We are hopeful That our stomachs aren't sinking That our hands aren't humming Let's pretend: We can breathe Because I'm one shallow breath from breaking"-K

I would just like to breath again with out forgetting.

// Last night I nearly died and as cheesy as it sounds, it put a lot of things in perspective. I want you all to know how much you are loved and cherished. But due to these circumstances I will continue to reside in dms for a few more weeks. Be brave and know your loved. -Writer