Long day. I woke @ 3a. Crying & freaky out. Ì gently ran my hands over his arms & head for hours. A nurse came, then social worker, nurse, bath aide. He is heavily medicated for comfort. He did say shit when I tried to wake him for meds. I doubt he ever wake on earth again. 😭😭

He is not longer aware. I had to leave to get eye injections. Even though he doesn't know if I'm there or not. I hope he is still there when I get back..yet it breaks my heart to see him suffer. I hate this. Cancer is cruel. 😪😭😏

How can I sleep? Wouldn't hear changes in his breathing. I couldn't send him off to strangers. Hospice has been very kind, but, I am left 2 make judgements I'm unqualified 4. With each dose I wonder am I helping hastening or both? Either way I can't chg the eventual outcome. 😭😪

At 5:41 a.m. I became a widow. I have no idea what to do. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I can not bteathe

It's been 13 hours. I am vibrating from my core. I don't know how to do this. I can't breathe or think.

This a.m.@ 5:41 he has been gone 2 mos. Also date of my last post. I have been out of my cozy chair infrequently & out of the house 4x, 2 4 funeral, 2 4 eye appts. I opened the blinds 4 the 1st time today. I c the leaves r changing. Lost followers, 1 person missed me. ❤️ u. 🙏

I trust that they do know 😍

Laying on the laundry and watching cartoons is the same as folding it right ?

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At 5:41 a.m. this morning, my husband has been gone for four months. It seems long and short and surreal.

5:41 this a.m. hubs been gone 4 months, 11 days. Today is the 1st holiday. doesn't feel like a holiday..just another Thursday. I'll be appearing here alone all day. If any of y'all happen to know where I put the Fire Stick remote, so I can stream a movie. Pls share 🤔