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@jaideesam

BPD | ADHD | Stage 4 Liver Disease | ๐Ÿชฑ | always struggling with addiction. I'm a never ending improvement on who I used to be. ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿฉถโ™ ๏ธ

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calendar_today04-07-2018 23:38:37

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I'm always the person who invites other people to things, even offering to pay for them as I struggle with people. My friend from college rang earlier and invited me to a gig in July I honestly can't remember the last time (beside my fiancรฉe ofc) someone wanted to see me!? ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ

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I'm not one to post pictures of food, but I'm in hospital and this was my free lunch. I am so impressed, last time I was here it was terrible, they must of changed the chef or supplier or whatever. #NHS

I'm not one to post pictures of food, but I'm in hospital and this was my free lunch. I am so impressed, last time I was here it was terrible, they must of changed the chef or supplier or whatever. #NHS
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My MH is awful today and my BPD symptoms are having a right laugh. Been in hospital for a week and I know they're gonna kick me out BC of my behaviour. I've already had 2 strikes but it's the only place I feel safe. Even my fiancรฉe went off. I'm gonna be a fuck up forever.

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On suicide watch at the hospital CBA with this crap. I feel really bad because I'm now hiding under a sink. They don't care, nobody cares about me. Nobody even notices me. As I write this somebody found me.

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Was meant to leave hospital a week ago, and everyday they say I can go home tomorrow... Was buzzing this morning to leave. Now I have to stay another night, yet again ๐Ÿ˜•

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It feels so surreal the fact I'm engaged. But my fiancรฉe is finding wedding venues. It feels like a dream that someone wants to marry me... How did I get so lucky?!

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Can't wait to see my fiancรฉe tomorrow. Think it's the longest I haven't properly seen her for, and knowing she'll still be in hospital for another week and a bit is horrid. My bungalow feels so empty without her laughter ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ˜•

Can't wait to see my fiancรฉe tomorrow. Think it's the longest I haven't properly seen her for, and knowing she'll still be in hospital for another week and a bit is horrid. My bungalow feels so empty without her laughter ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ˜•
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So happy I got to see my fiancรฉe today! She's on the Cystic Fibrosis Unit so everyone has their own room. If it's not me, it's her always in hospital ๐Ÿฅ I miss her so much. ๐Ÿ˜•

So happy I got to see my fiancรฉe today! She's on the Cystic Fibrosis Unit so everyone has their own room. If it's not me, it's her always in hospital ๐Ÿฅ I miss her so much. ๐Ÿ˜•
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Who has done a bungee jump before? Any tips? Booked in next month, very excited. Done a skydive before but can't imagine it being similar, so idk what to expect!

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Crazy how people with bpd, bipolar, schizophrenia, any of the "scary mental illnesses" are 99% of the time the coolest, most emotionally intelligent and creative people you will ever meet but y'all are really not ready to stop shunning us before you get to know us.

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Out of hospital for the 3rd?? Time in s month. Had my birthday in hospital, extremely lonely as no visitors besides my fiancรฉe.. God never thought anyone would propose to me. Mads how time really does change.