The left picture is 7 years ago in the middle of 2017 one of the hardest years You can see the GJ tube and drainage bags on the table the black bag is the TPN I was on to live, I still didnt know how the clinical trial was going end up, I was beyond depressed and I was just

starting therapy but to be honest looking back at this point I didn't know how much longer I wanted to live a life like what I was living each day.

7 years later on the right I look healthier I'm off drainage bags and tpn my cancer is still here and alive but I am as well

but not without struggles My mental health is still a struggle some days it feels like a insurmountable struggle I still have the same thoughts I did 7 years ago at points this life and mental health is not linear and those feelings and thoughts can still pop up

Seeing this picture from 2017 pop up reminds me of all I've been through and all I've seen and dealt with to be here today but at same time that's not helping the mental place and struggles I'm in today other than remind me of the place I was in back then which is important

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