even though I just added a 'belt' and a fluffy (way too small) purse to my outfit, it looked soooo good

giving somebody another knife while the previous knife you gave them is still stuck in your back and almost killed you is dumb as fuck, but, god, I am dumb as fuuuucck and I handed that knife over with a smile on my face and butterflies in my stomach 🙂

I fucking hope I don't have to go back to my previous tweet one day and be like 'you dumb fucking bitch, I told you so', I hope future-me is a happy, dumb bitch. she fucking deserves it so much

wahoo!

one day, everybody is going to leave. either by choice or by death and loving somebody is gonna end in tragedy, either way and I never realised the extent of it and it's so scary, nothing is forever

today I finally went into my favourite garden center again, which was always off the table because it's in his town. I felt super humbled how big the tomato plants were that they had there, because mine are super scrawny. so all I bought for now is fertilizer & hope for the best

I just realised that my mom lives there, too, and lowkey meeting my mother would have been even worse than meeting his mother, haha, but luckily I saw nobody

I'm only 6'3 in these shoes? I was hoping for 6'6, but oh well

virgo, the past is not your only story. let it go gently.

one thing is for certain in this life and that is that absolutely nothing is for certain, except death. so I might as well live and enjoy things while they last. I learned that the hard way.

i like my men possessive, stalkerish and disgustingly obsessed

look at this idiotic fool that you made me

all I want is to find joy in my life again, why is it so goddamn hard, man?

I've been so miserable for 4 months and then I think him coming back is going to fix it, but it made me miserable in a different way, because the leaving itself was what made it so bad and I hope one day I'll get over it, but what if I don't??

and I can't tell him? I can't tell him 'you fucked me up mentally so badly that I obsess over you and want to be with you every fucking minute' when what he wants is more time for himself? I want to end it all so badly, this is so fucked up

am I seriously hoping for somebody to save me who left me for dead for four fucking months? I think I've dug this grave all by myself