- As I took the first sip from the bottle, the tears welled up again. And I let it happen. Happy Anniversary. You fucked it up.

The sun was raising over La Push, as I sat on my couch, my knees pulled up to my chest, one hand holding the bottle of vodka, -

- that had accompanied me through the last hours. The fingers of my free hand tapping against my knee, as if I was impatiently waiting -

- for something. And I actually was. Somehow I did believe she might end up calling me. Maybe she was also thinking of me. About this -

- day one year ago. And maybe she couldn't sleep either. The first rays of sun broke through the clouds and for a moment my wedding band -

- flashed up, while I was tapping on my knee. I stopped and stared for a moment. Then I picked up my phone from the table. -

- Her number was still the first one to show up in my recent calls list. Since she left, I hadn't made any calls and only my mom called -

- every now and then to make sure I wasn't dead yet. Everytime she saw me leaving my house or coming home, I literally saw how -

- the weight fell off of her shoulders, just to be building up again, when I disappeared for another week, hiding in my dark house. -

- My thumb hovered over her name. One touch and I'd be calling her. I froze in this position, even when the display turned dark. -

- Maybe she'd answer. What would I say? Or if she didn't answer, worse, if she even denied? What would I do? -

- Scared from that thought, I dropped my phone back on the table and took a big gulp from the bottle in my hand. -

- Who was I kidding? She probably slept in the arms of someone new. I had never mattered anyway.

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@HisCharlieCall Hi?

@HisCharlieCall Long time is quite an understatement. *shrugs* Pretty good, actually. Been here, been there. How about you?

@HisCharlieCall Been surprised. Never thought you'd ever come back.

@HisCharlieCall It's good to see you, too.