the concept of being suicidal but being too scared to die

there's something so comforting about having an empty stomach i wish i could stay like this forever

Althea 🐳 I HATE GAY PEOPLE

i wanna pull out my vein through the cut on my wrist i wanna carve open my stomach and tear out my insides i feel too full i wanna be empty i wanna replace the pieces that are there with something more alive i feel like i'm dying i feel like i'm dying

i hate having feelings like why is that a thing

like i wish i could just like not have any feelings bc id be able to think more rationally anf actually function or magbe just turn them off without it being such a big deal like it is to other ppl normallu

im so sleey but i dont wanna sleep

ive been maintaining in the low 160s and im like on and off mad ab it but i cant be bothered to give a shit

what if i ripped out all mh teeth then what

im so itchy why do scars itch im gonna skin myself i wanna cry

sorry i tweet in like rapid bursts then disappear i hate my phone and am afraid of talking 💋💋

why did i lose like five mutuals what the fuck

LETS GO MY GOAT LOVES ME

guys im out having a fag and the heat turned my blowtorch lighter on and i burned part of the table it was resting on and burned my finger this is awful

"why don't you post about politics here?" well you see this is my eating disorder account. and i have other social media where i post about politics. but this is where i post about my eating disorder.

AHAT AM I GETTING 😼😼

im scared im gonna become like actually physically disabled to a degree i wont be able to cope with if this doesnt stop and my coworker told me its v v likely esp w how ive been dealing w this for almost a decade now

tldr pain ive had 4 almost a decade is flaring up rn + i can barely walk sit or lay down without being in close to excruciating pain/discomfort

i might cut tonight i cant cope w anything

she only loves me when she's drunk and it hurts so bad